Physical that is. Having a serious migraine right now. Also on my period which doesnt help. Which might explain the migraine.
Its like my body's way of saying, if your not having cramps, you have to have a headache.
You don't have a choice of not having pain, it's either one or the other.
I'd take the day off but I dont have anymore sick days and apparently in order to keep my insurance,
I can't have any days off work. This sucks.
So yeah, I gained a few more pounds than I would have liked. So im back on the diet thing again.
I didn't terribly gain, just enough where if I work at it, It shouldn't be hard to lose.
This is my one goal for the year, and I really want to accomplish it.
I know that if I get down to a certain point my body will eventually stop gaining.
That's what I want to get to, for instance if I get down to 145 or so my body will probably retain that.
Yesterday I had a bunch of rice cakes, they taste like communion wafers but they fill me up.
So I really dont care.
I've been having a lot going on in my life lately,
I met this guy online, for now I'll just refer to him by his usernm - Bitwarrior,
He lives in Connecticut, likes video games, into computers, rpgs and such, like myself.
Hes really nice, We've been talking on and off through e-mails for a few months.
Mostly about games and the struggles we're going through in our lives.
Now your probably thinking "What's Dan thinking about this" Im pretty sure he's ok with it.
He has female friends, so I can have male friends.
Bit wants to meet me so we can hang out, play some games what not.
I would like to meet him however, I come to find I've developed this ...phobia I guess of meeting new people.
So add that to Thunder, lightning and now Meeting new people.
I guess im just afraid it might be terribly awkward and he may never want to talk to me again.
Im the type of person who will say something and everyone either goes dead silent or someone will be like
OH YEAH.. heh.
This is becoming a problem, I'd like to meet new people and make friends but I can't break out of my shell.
I guess im afraid of the commitment which is why I have only 2 real people I can actually confide in.
Which speaking of that, meeting new people.
I am so so proud of Dan, He's really confident, while at the same time he has a phobia similar to myself, he is able to break out of his shell easily and manage to talk to people with confidence. I admire him for that.
In a way im jealous of him.
He recently joined a gaming group at CCRI that plays Magic.
I really wish I could go with him because it seems fun but I have the feeling that I would be just stuck on him like glue or again just really socially awkward.
Not to mention I can't seem to grasp the concept of Magic.
Dan tried to teach me but I just dont get it. Either that or I cant hold interest long enough to get it.
See it'd be easy to socialize because magic would be the topic of choice.
But how can I talk about something I don't even know how to play?
Im trying to find a youtube video that might explain easier.
I found this one, its part of a series on how to play, though I might need headphones to hear it better.
Today in the Twitterverse:
- 10:27 @zack_a Veterans Day celebrates living veterans as well as those who have died; Memorial Day is to honor the dead #
- 10:40 @zack_a that I do not know #
- 14:34 Remembering a great-uncle fallen in Normandy, 1944 bit.ly/29bTl3 #
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- 14:06 @sundaynights (((hugs))) #
- 18:10 @woops I haven't got a clue either LOL #
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